Summer Is Almost Here and I Will Soon Be Home

Less than a month left of school until summer and I cannot wait. No more homework, projects, tests; pretty much no more stress. I will do nothing but sleep for the first three weeks of summer because I don’t start work until after that.  Since I don’t sleep much at school I will catch up on my sleeping, and then I will be set and ready for the summer and my job.

I work as a camp counselor at a day camp. I work 9:00 – 5:00 playing basketball, dodgeball and other sports, swimming, and hanging out with all of the kids and counselors. 

It is the best job ever. And I am already going to be sad to leave it when I am done with college. 

I realized one day this year that I am never satisfied with where I am. When it is during the beginning of the school year I wanted internship, then while it was internship I wanted school, now it’ school again and I want summer, and when it’s summer I’l want school. But right now I am looking at how excited I am to go home for the summer. 

I miss my friends, my family, my job, and the relaxation and vacation of summer. It is that time to go home for a while and enjoy summer. 

While I will be leaving the campus and the school work I hope to still work on this blog. I will not see it as work over the summer.

Greece, Here I Come

 Like I said, I want to get out of here. And from what I believe I will be going to Greece to study abroad Spring of 2010. 

I wasn’t always wanting to leave Endicott for a semester to study abroad. After going to Cancun and Italy I thought there was nowhere else that I’d want to really go to. But after knowing I needed to get out of Beverly, I said a study abroad sounded pretty good to me.

I at first wanted to go to South Africa. Hills, sunsets, safaris, what else could I ask for? Nothing. I believe that I am different than a lot of other people who want to study abroad in the sense that I am not crazy about sightseeing. There really aren’t many specific places on my list to go visit. I would love to visit Italy, Amsterdam, and Germany, and I am going to, but I can’t name any museums or parks I’m dying to go to. I just want to go to and be somewhere else. I want to wake up and go to bed in another place. South Africa became less of a thought as Greece came up. I heard a little bit about it from my friend who wants to go as well. And then I met with the study abroad person at Endicott.

After talking with her I got even more excited to go. So if I can save some money, keep a good g.p.a. and if I get everything in on time then I will be off to Greece.

I do get homesick very easily. If I leave my house for more than a night I want to just go home. But Endicott to me is my second home. It will be hard to adjust Greece, but I am ready for it. I am ready to leave Endicott to spend a semester in a whole new place, with new people, and a new culture.

I am ready to leave the beaches and buildings of Endicott and go to the beaches and buildings of Greece.  I will feel relieved and like a weight has just come off my shoulders. This is something I need in my life right now.

I Need To Get Out of Here

Now don’t get me wrong, I do love Endicott. Amazing people, gorgeous campus, great surrounding areas. But while I was walking back from class the other day I was listening to Jack’s Mannequin, and one of the lyrics changed the whole rest of my whole day.

Holiday From Real

“She thinks I’m much to thin,
She asks me if I’m sick.
What’s a girl to do with friends like this?
She lets me drive her car so I can score an eighth,
from the lesbians out west in Venice.

Oh, California in the summer.
Ah, and my hair is growing long.
Fuck yeah, we can live like this.”

I’ve heard this song many times and I’ve known the lyrics for a while now, so hearing this song was nothing new. I wasn’t even really listening to the lyrics, but I believe subconsciously my mind processed the words “Venice” and “California.”

Suddenly an urge kicked in. All I wanted at that moment, and for the next few hours, was to be in California either walking down or skateboarding down Venice Beach. Maybe even getting an ice cream there would be nice.

This sudden desire soon lead me into a mood I’ve never really been in. I started to think that I wanted to be out in LA starting my life. I no longer wanted to be here at Endicott. I wanted to be out in LA, or NYC, or anywhere, starting my future.

This last semester at Endicott really has gotten to me. I thought that having two production classes would be awesome. I’ve made so many movies on my own time, and I love it. So to have two classes where I could make movies I thought it would be awesome. Unfortunately the classes turned out to be the exact opposite of what I thought.

I hate doing lighting, I hate editing, I hate setting up shots, I hate recording sound separately, I hate having to do certain shots certain ways. To sum it up: I hate most of the things I’ve been doing this semester.

Now I’m not going to lie, I love my professor for these classes. Derek Frank is the man, and he knows how to teach. But to be honest I hate all of this production stuff.

Last semester after taking Writing for the Screen with Frank I realized that was what I wanted to do with my life; write screenplays. I’ve started writing screenplays already and reading books on how to write screenplays, and I’ve been looking at contests online. It is what I want to do.

I also have come to realize that I want to be a stand-up comedian. I’ve been writing jokes now for a few months, but just recently I’ve become pretty serious about it. I’ve written about 8 pages of jokes, and then I also have a 5 minute lay out of jokes for when I do an open mic night.

So the feeling I had was that I wanted to be out in LA or NYC writing and doing open mic nights, not wasting my time here. I wanted to leave Endicott and never come back. I wanted to leave and start my life.

I called my parents and talked to my mom for about an hour and told her to convince me to come back next fall. I told her I needed more than “you need a college degree,” and “it’s just two more years,” to return in the fall.

If I could go back in time I would’ve worked harder in high school and I would have worked harder and tried to get into Emerson or NYU. I wish I could be getting a degree in Screenplay Writing. But unfortunately that’s not the way it is.  I am getting a degree in Digital Film Making. And that degree doesn’t focus that much on screenplay writing that much, it focuses on everything for film production. 

So I decided I’ll stay here and finish up my time here at Endicott. The good thing about Digital Film Making is that while we do our homework and go to classes we can be writing in our free time and doing stand-up, and doing all of these things to get a name for ourselves. Instead of leaving now and struggling out there in the real world I can keep getting an education and hope to make a name for myself before I graduate. Also, I know if I left now at age 30 I would be looking back regretting that I didn’t get a degree.

I’ll be abroad for a semester next Spring and hopefully far away for an internship the fall of my senior year. And already the feelings I have had changed a little. I knew they would. From the start of this all I knew I would be coming back next fall. 

In the meantime, before I walk with my cap and gown to get my diploma I will keep working now trying to get a name for myself.

Should I Stay Or Should I Go?

The video posted below is one I made this past week. I wrote the poem for it and filmed, edited, recorded guitar and got the audio for it. It relates a lot to my last post. It focuses on a person who thinks they want to leave the place they are at now. Everyday this person writes a letter and packs their bag, but rips up the letter and gets rid of his bag before anyone can see it. He wants to leave and he thinks there is something better for him out there, but he stays for his friends because they mean the most to him. 

 

http://framesandfields.com/215/MichaelW/VideosMW/StayorGo.mp4

Friends Come First

When people think about leaving I think the main factor that plays a part in their final decision is the people around them. No matter how tough something will get in a person’s life they may stay for these people. 

To me it will always be the people around me who cause me to stay. I worked at Stop and Shop for over a year and though I hated the job I had a great time with the people I worked with. A good amount of the employees were already my friends but I met new people working there. Because I needed the money was one reason I kept the job but more it was the people I worked with who really kept me going.

“Do what makes you happy” is what everyone tells their friends. And they follow it up with a sometimes fake “if you’re happy, then I’m happy.” If I wanted to leave somewhere and somebody told me these things I wouldn’t know how to take it. The only way I think I could take it is to respect them as a friend for saying something like this to me. But sometimes when someone does something to make themselves happy they upset people around them. 

I have thought about leaving other things, like Endicott College even, and though there are many reasons I don’t leave these things, one of the main reasons will always be because of the people around me. 

Once I get settled somewhere and meet new people and get new friends I don’t think I could leave no matter what I dislike about where I was or what great things I could have waiting for me somewhere else. 

I don’t need to leave things because my friends will always mean the most to me. As long as I have friends where I am at I don’t see the other things getting to me so much to the point where I leave. And if I have true friends then they will help me with whatever is wrong around me. Don’t get me wrong, there are things that could cause me to leave somewhere or something no matter how great my friends are, but there are many more things that I will choose keeping so I can stay with my friends.

To Leave or Not to Leave

There are many times in my life where I have wanted to leave something but I didn’t. There have been times where I’ve wanted to leave jobs but didn’t. There have been times where I wanted to leave past girlfriends but didn’t. There have even been those times where a young Mikey Weil wanted to leave home forever; just to get down the road for a little while, and then turn around and go back home for dinner. 

Sometimes when people want to leave something they don’t because they think a fresh start or to find something new may be difficult. Sometimes people want to leave someone but they don’t because they don’t want to hurt the other person. And sometimes people want to leave something but don’t because they know they can’t; because there are no other options.

When I was younger I remember  a few times where I left my house on my bike after I fought with my parents. I would ride to a hill near my house and sit there and think. Whenever someone wants to leave something or they do leave something they make battle with a hill. Some people never make it up that hill, and some people keep working up that hill for a long time. And for people who leave something it’s a tough ride up and they must work hard for it, and a new start is always tough, but once they reach the top and they know they have made the right choice, it’s an easy, smooth ride down. 

In this picture it seems like the sun is beginning to set. With every sunset comes a sunrise. With every ending of a night comes a start of a new morning and a new day. When someone decides not to leave then a day ends and a new day begins but things are still the same with them. But the sunset and then sunrise also mark an ending and a new beginning. This is what happens when someone decides to leave something. There is always an ending and a new beginning.

Leaving When You’re Not

 

If someone is ready to leave something behind but they don’t end up going they are still leaving something. When they end up not leaving, they are leaving what they might’ve had. They are also leaving behind their feelings of having a new place. 

Everyday people leave something behind. And everyday people almost leave something behind. When thinking about leaving, people must contemplate whether or not to go. They go over the pros and cons and if the pros outweigh the cons then they leave, and if they don’t then they won’t leave. But these people are still leaving behind some of the pros and cons.

Leaving happens with everything. If a person decides not to leave then they will still leave something. Leaving something behind or being left behind is something that everyone has to do in their lives, and even when they don’t do it they are still leaving something.

Left Behind

There comes a time where someone must leave something behind them. Some people leave behind their friends and family and everything they had to pursue something bigger. Some people leave a significant other behind because what they once had is now lost. Some people leave something behind that they started but can’t finish. Some people leave things behind on accident, too. 

Everyday people leave things behind that they don’t mean to. Some people leave behind their most important possessions on accident. Some people leave behind an article of clothing on accident. Some people leave behind the smallest objects on accident, but at the time they could never need them more.

Everyday people pass things and they don’t know if they were left behind on purpose or on accident; or if they were even left behind at all. Sometimes seeing some things left behind doesn’t mean anything to us, but to someone else it could mean everything. Sometimes people see something left behind and they feel for it; knowing they have left things behind, and they also they have been that thing left behind.

Leaving

Leaving

Leaving is usually thought of as something bad. A lover leaving their significant other, or a person leaving their job. But leaving can be a good thing. A person could leave their boring, small town to move somewhere bigger and better. Leaving could also not be a permanent thing. Someone may leave to go to the store and they can come right back. But then again they can leave and never come back. On purpose or not. Sometimes leaving is intentional while other times it can be the complete opposite. Some people mourn over someone who has left them, while others throw parties for someone they love who is leaving.

In this picture it is hard to tell what kind of leaving the car is doing. Are there packed bags in the car? Is there a map in the car? Is there just one person in the car or is there more?

Leaving will always be something that is hard to tell how long it will be for. Some people choose to leave for what they think will be a few minutes, and they never come back again. Some people choose to leave somewhere for what they think will be forever, just to return to the same place the following day. Most of the time people leave something for what they think will be better and it ends up being worse. Other times people leave something for what is really  better. Leaving is something that happens every second of every day, and it will always be like this.

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